Endless Void

evildragonxl @ 2006-10-08T15:37:00

2006-10-08T20:48:47Z

Refreshing.. but painful. I miss my home. I miss my puppy dog. and I miss my family and friends.

Ive met alot of new people though. I want to go home and see my friends, but im not comfortable staying with my family. I do love them though. They just dont accept me for who i am.... yet

I also worry about leaving because I feel like i will miss out on something. I wont. But you know how that goes.

Im confused about my relationships with people lately.

I have fallin in line with a group of friends that dont always trust eachother. and thats not always easy.

Im tired of it. I dealt with this back when I was friends with samm, haley, and alison...(shutter)....

But its different this time. because im not the one taking the heat. but i still feel bad and wanna protect and keep everyone from everyone else.

I just dont know what is going to happen at this point.

last night.

2006-07-07T17:02:42Z

I saw pirates last night. Drunk at that.

So you know I was having fun.

I met these really cool people like 2 days ago.

Meg and Nick.

They are pretty much awesome.. didnt really know them, but hey drinking... is drinking.

And thats one of the best ways to get to know people.

Meg has a really cool VW Beetle! I love it!

This is me... then (haha i had to)

2006-07-06T18:08:44Z

Im finally ready to start this new chapter in my life..

Im going to stop being so lazy, Ive have been working out more and eating right.
because im a health freak...

when I smoked cigs back in the day,(like 2 months ago) I would feel bad about it, and I wanted to quit.

But I never quit because they were for vanity.

Well smoking isnt hot. Its gross. and it tastes bad to kiss a smoker. And your clothes and car smell horrible after a while.

I should of known better. Its so not me.

So im just going to stick to drinking! :)

4th of July

2006-07-04T20:51:32Z

I love fireworks! Everyone is going crazy around my house.

So tonight we get to sit and park in the VIP section of the fireworks at the riverfront!!!

CHA CHING!!! best seats down there i bet. Im so hype! I love america....

Im going to party it up tonight!

!!!!!!!

2006-06-18T01:49:48Z

GAHHH!!!

WTF.... im so fucking bored and

everyone is being lame.

Or not calling me back..

or so on.

so if you wanna hang out call me people!

Today was weird.

2006-06-16T21:12:26Z

I didnt get to bed last night till like 3:00ish due to the insane amount of soda i consumed.

so im kinda tired... but hype? i dont know why because i have to work in less then an hour and i dont get off till 8:30. lame.

I went to court today to be a witness against zack. but he pleaded guilty. I was glad, I didnt want to have to get infront of everyone and tell them the story.. Just wasnt in the mood to.

I took forever though - it started at 1:30 and didnt get over until like 3:00.

Wasted my day.

evildragonxl @ 2006-06-13T11:00:00

2006-06-13T16:19:35Z

Today i start my second job proctor home. It should be fun. Joe, Amanda, Michael, Tim? and I are all going to work there this summer. At least until it gets clean. Tonight Alyson, Joe, and I might take Patrick's drinking virgin card away!

So I heard about a party that is going on saturday. I might go.. Who knows... Part of me doesn't want to see High school Faces, Part of me does.

Yesterday's Jerry Springer episode was a Thanksgiving one. A bunch of fat people had a big food fight... Some ate the food instead. Looked like fun.

Speaking of messy shit. I have to clean my room.

Cya Y'all later!

Bored

2006-06-13T01:11:16Z

call me if you wanna get crunk!

Next stop, ISU!

2006-06-08T18:25:08Z

Im ready to move out of peoria.

I am really going to miss my number one drinking buddy, and a very good friend. Alyson.

I am also going to miss Joe alot. That kid is like a brother to me. But im not really worried about it. because I know that we will be friends later on in life.

Im ready to make some more friends and get into some raunchy relationships in college! ;)

So i think im supposed to go see the omen tonight. Anyone know if its any good?

evildragonxl @ 2006-06-07T23:08:00

2006-06-08T04:08:13Z

So lost....

The big day..

2006-05-24T14:00:12Z

Well this is it.. and im very nervous. Funny how I was completely cool up to this point but when I get up to the plate im like omg... big world out there.

I really shouldnt be freaking out, I dont know how well I will do in college. I guess no one knows how well they will do.

If I really want to succeed and achieve my goals I can.

Im just anxious

Prom!

2006-05-07T22:25:02Z

Ah! i had so much fun! I didnt really expect to have as much fun as i did. First i got dressed and picked up jess, took pictures at my house, then went to my work to visit the residents.
then we went to jess's house for, of course more pictures.
Then we headed to the botanical gardens... for more pictures... dem pictures hot though. lol

went to dinner and to prom. the first hour and a half was sucky.. once some cool people got there the party was on. I was fucking jammin. i just didnt care... i was there to have fun. i paid 50 dollars to be there. i was going to dance my ass off!

Prom ended. and i went home, showered and went to christi's! Christi is a fucking gag! we were the last two dancing and drinkin at 5:30 in the morning. I took so many pictures! so ill have to show you guys. Oh and wade was there! I fucking love wade. He so cool.

so i went home at 9:45.. slept till 1:30 today and called christi to see if she needed help cleaning.. so i went over there. helped.. and then we decided to go to lou's...

OK this is the most fucking weirdest thing ever! I was ordering my food a lou's... and my pants just fell off! I was like OMG! and some 30 year old lady started gagin..

whelp now im hanging out with joe and i have know idea what we are about to get on. im pretty much pooped out though.. 2 female strangers seein me in my skibs can do things to you man.

4-20

2006-04-20T20:44:04Z

Hmm.. so school was completely pointless today.. nothing of great interest happened.
Prom is coming up soon and i dont have anything ready for it. Im going with Jessica Atkinson. that should be fun.
Well alison Imed me today.. and said Happy 420... It was the first time we talked in like a month.. kinda out of the blue. It was cool though.

Well. i have no idea what im doing tonight... well i know what im doing tonight. i just dont know who im doing it with. I think im going to ask brianna to hangout tonight that would be fun.

Andy wanted to hang out but im not to sure if i want to because that means ill probably drink and i drank tuesday night and didnt make it to school wednesday. soo... nah...

So have you ever found something, but didnt appreciate it so you didnt keep it. but then you realize this thing is great and you might even love it. and you want it more than anything else in the world.. but u cant. fuuuunnnn stttuffff...

I cant wait for patrick to get to peoria this summer!!!! woot! We gonna get ripped!

Well i have to go do stuff. So ill have something to right about later.. cant make everything up all the time... lol just kiddin.

you dont have to go home, but you cant stay here!

April showers.... bring May flowers...

2006-04-11T20:52:59Z

Samm makes me happy.

She really is a good kid.

Everyone that sees this post:

Give Sammantha Georgia England a big hug!

Late night benders..

2006-04-11T20:36:23Z

Alyson is 21! woot. we had so much fun last night. Whats better then taking shots of tequila at the park and gettin some dunkin donuts?

Haha.. All of her chruch friends knew we were drunk. it was funny. They tried to make me feel bad like.. Shane your going to hell. Bunch of debbie downers.. except that kendra.. she is cool.

Then we tried to sleep on alyson's trampoline... that didnt work out.. it was too cold..

so we decided to just go sleep in our beds. i walked home and went to bed.

I didnt wake up until 12:30 today.. and i was suppose to boil my cat with sara again. but we switched it to tommorow. because that smell would of made me throw up like crazy. eck.

I made scrammbled eggs and toast! it was delicious. and now, here i am waiting to have to go to work at 5. Everyone have a great night! and call if you wanna chill!

evildragonxl @ 2006-04-05T15:30:00

2006-04-05T20:42:38Z

I have had a pretty good week so far. I have been making a lot of changes in my life lately and its great! I hung out with dawn and joe yesterday. We went to grand prairie, Dawn and I climbed the rock wall, it was actually difficult. I also bought one of those car scent things that you hang of your rear view mirror. My car smells like Honeydew! mmmmm. On the way back I was doing the lean wit it rock wit it dance.. and a random black guy saw and was like Whattsss upp.. and started gaging and doing it with me. haha.

Today was so productive, Worked out at landmark ( the rockwall helped me decide it was time to start.. lol). Went to wally's world with my mom. All the residents for my work were there. it was weird. I bought this really tasty tea and some of that Serpentine axe snake peel stuff. Smells so good!

well I should go get ready for work and all that jazz.

2 days without a cig. ^_^!

The sequel.

2006-04-04T04:14:28Z

Well, I have done what I promised myself I would do. I feel strange about it. Uncomfortable one should say.
Alison vandalizing my car sparked what needed to be done. I had to clean all the oreos of, then sweep all of them off the parking lot, then i had to wipe down my car. It caused My co-worker and I to be behind 30 minutes on my work.. It was hell.. does anyone know how hard it is to see black cookies on black top!?! hard! Plus my manager yelled at me like it was my fault.. The funny part is that alison didnt really mess with me, she messed with her boss, because its not my jeep. its my dads....

Sure, i would of found this to be funny if we were cool like that.. but lately I havent been cool with them. They choose bad timing.. You cant not hangout with someone, and do that shit.

Sometimes i regret not seeing how easily alison throws away her best friends before...
Im not the first.

evildragonxl @ 2006-04-01T14:06:00

2006-04-01T20:19:14Z

There comes a point in ones life, where one needs to shed his/her child like skin so they can mature into the man/woman that they will be. The difficult part is figuring out what this skin is... it could be things that make you unhappy, things that hold you back, or people that bring you down. The growing process of life is extremely painful emotionally and pshyically, yet when you are done the rewards are those of life. Children, A home of your own, a job you enjoy, and all the other things you dream about when your a kid could be those rewards. When do you know that you need to shed this skin? You will feel it. It will itch at you from day to day, you know what needs to be done. Your afraid though, afraid of change. Everyone has to change in their life, remember the first day of school, most of us were afraid. Look at us now, graduation is near. So dont be afraid. Do it, Do what you need to do! I am.

and.... I consider it done.

evildragonxl @ 2006-01-24T18:22:00

2006-01-25T00:25:03Z

I fucking hate when people say there going to come over within a half hour then not show up for three hours so you call and they say they are on their way.. and you wait for another half an hour and then they call and say that they are just going to stay home.... fucking rude...

evildragonxl @ 2005-11-08T23:08:00

2005-11-09T05:09:53Z

Well, I love alison.

even though I was mad at her. we worked it out.

evildragonxl @ 2005-10-24T15:23:00

2005-10-24T20:25:56Z

So on top of all that crap from the weekend....

My mom finally found out that i lost my 300 dollar camera...

yeah...

so my debt.... is as follows..

240- jeep got towed
300- new camera
5- alex
4- laura
549 dollars in debt.... god damn.

im spent.

Its been so long.

2005-10-18T23:17:26Z

I havent really posted lately. not much has been actually going on in my life, just side stuff that my friends are going thru like alison's vendettas and samm's young struggle against an oppressive regime.

All that stuff above ^

Its just a phase in your life. I went thru it. It comes dont to a point of just not even trying to argue with your parents about those type of things. I mean they are going to say how they feel no matter how you think about the matter. And your going to do the same thing. And god damn it they have a right to say what they wont. So just let them. take it into consideration. and accept it or just let it go in one ear and out the other.

Honestly our parents pay alot for us to remain happy or safe.

House payment: ??? probally alot..
jeep Payment. 289 a month
Insurance: 200 a month
Lunch food: 3 dollars a day

im sure there is more

Peace is the best thing.

PS: JORDAN IM NOT MAD AT YOU! JUST TALK TO ME AND I WILL TALK BACK!

evildragonxl @ 2005-09-08T19:20:00

2005-09-09T00:22:23Z

ah nik o bag o phunk!

ah nik o bag o phunk!!

AH NIK O BAG O PHUNK!!!

that goes out to my fellow nik o bag o phunk lovers.

oh no!

2005-09-01T20:34:06Z

This doesnt look good...

You scored as Satanism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Satanism! Before you scream, do a bit of research on it. To be a Satanist, you don't actually have to believe in Satan. Satanism generally focuses upon the spiritual advancement of the self, rather than upon submission to a deity or a set of moral codes. Do some research if you immediately think of the satanic cult stereotype. Your beliefs may also resemble those of earth-based religions such as paganism.

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Satanism

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agnosticism

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atheism

63%

Islam

58%

Buddhism

38%

Christianity

38%

Hinduism

25%

Paganism

17%

Judaism

17%

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2005-08-16T01:05:06Z

So i got a new icon..

I love harry potter. im reading the 5th book righr now. Yeah im behind.

so umm alison got a buelher home interview. hell yes..

I had fun last night. it wazzz a gooooddd time..

man our new pad is tizzy tight.

so 70.. we need a turn table though.. yeah..

mmm.. phood. later